Introspection 28.0

[Day 28 → What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?]

This is one of those questions that have to face me with the event to give the sincere answer. So, what I will say now is what I THINK that I'd do: if I were pregnant, I would keep the baby because aborting the first child is dangerous. I would keep the baby and have my family help me raise him. Under no circumstances would I ever give my child for adoption. I would also get the father and make him help me. However, I'd stay away from being pregnant in the first place.


Introspection 27.0

[Day 27 → What’s the best thing going for you right now?]

My health. No matter how cliché that might sound, without that, the other good things don't matter.
[photo taken by Wind, but the idea was mine]


Introspection 26.0

[Day 26 → Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?]

Yes and before I answer this, I must add that suicide is one of the most IDIOTIC thing that exists in this world and everybody who has done it is a retard. I don't care if you have friends who did this, it's no excuse, it doesn't exonerate it, it is still retarded.

And actually being faced with the desire to do it made me realize how absurd it is. And the reason wasn't what most people call depression [only 1% of those had a REAL depression anyway].

This subject makes me cranky, so I won't bother to write more. Suicide shouldn't even exist and especially those retards who want to kill themselves at the subway, they all deserve to survive but be forever paralysed or fucked up for life. If you want to kill yourself, do it in your own damn home, not in a place where you block so many people from going on with their LIVES.


Introspection 25.0

[Day 25 → The reason you believe you’re still alive today.]

Because of family and a good doctor when I was in a coma.
[photo taken in Monte Carlo, some years ago]


Introspection 24.0

[Day 24 → Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs.]

Metallica - Nothing Else Matters [because it describes the situation perfectly]

Enigma - Beyond the Invisible [because it would expand his horizons about me]

Roxette - Spending my Time [because it's how I feel, sadly]

Mayhem - View from Nihil [because it's what I feel about society]

Roxette - My World, My Love, My Life [because it's him] *thanks to ni for this song.

Bathory - Song to Hall Up High [because he has to know the song behind the meaning of my tattoo]

Röyksopp - What Else Is There? [because it's electric]

It's for Mark.


Introspection 23.0

[Day 23 → Something you wish you had done in your life.]

I wish that when we went to Norway by car that time, not to have been lazy and drive 100 more km or so and see the Northern Lights. It would've been gorgeous to do that. And I wish I kept my photos from that trip in a better place, because being on film, they got lost and for years I haven't been able to find them. I know that the memory remains, but sometimes, one needs to induce the memory with certain stimuli.
[Photo taken by Wind - Meteora 2010]